Goodbye Caden

My friend Adrian is losing his little boy Caden today. He is 8 months old and has been with him since he was 4 months old. he spent the first 4 months of his life in the back seat of a car with his crackhead mother. he was listless and smelled like smoke when he came to live with Adrian and patrick. he is now a happy healthy animated little guy who is loved and cherished by all of us. His paternal grandmother is going to have custody of him. I think he is autistic and worry that she will not have the skills nedded to care for this special boy. Adrian says if she doesn't treat him well he will go tip over her trailer! LOL!

Other news, I had a sex dream last night. it was weird too. I dreamt that I was making out with the guy from Six Feet Under,he was Claire's boyfriend,Gabe, whose little brother accidentally killed himself with a handgun. He was kissing me and it was like kissing a dead fish! I was dissappointed to say the least. I mean, really now, can I not have a decent sex dream? I am not particularly attracted to this guy and in the dream I was thinking that if he was this crappy of a kisser then I was not sure if I wanted to go any farther with him. We were on the U.T. campus and I needed to go to pee so I went looking for a restroom. But, then it turned into one of those dreams where you need to pee but the bathroom is out of order or the door on the stall is gone, toilet is gone,can't find the restroom, that sort of thing. It is usually then that I wake up having to pee really bad!

Post Christmas Update

Hope everybody is doing okay after the big day! I worked the morning seeing a few diabetics and was done and home by 9am! I made $300 from 6:30 to (am. That's what I'm talking about! I met up with 3 other nurses and one them had her 20 year old daughter in tow at the Four Seasons Hotel(posh) *****. We ate at their Christmas buffet. It was so GOOD! I had sea bass, lamb chop, pork loin, beef wellington, huge boiled shrimp, cracked crab legs,assortment of fine cheeses, bread,dried apricots,chicken salad(my favorite),ambrosia salad,an artichoke, fresh mozzarella cheese and pepper with crouton salad,(to die for), carrots and brocolini with an orange sauce, asparagus with blue cheese and walnuts, and mimosa to drink. Then we moved into the desserts: OMG! triple layer chocolate fudge cake, white chocolate cheesecake(the best ever), eggnog pudding, a multi layered cake with white cake strawberry mousse, and kiwi mouse, pecan pie, this little fudge covered cake with layers of dark and milk chocolate mousse(delicious)sticky toffee pudding(okay)some kind of rice pudding with rum raisin and coffee. I tell ya I ate and ate and then rested and ate some more. Hey, for $73 and some change I am getting my money's worth! I was miserable of course and went home to lay on the couch watching TV with Dooley. I got up again and went to my friend Jana's house and had supper with them. Lasagna(yummy), bow tie pasta with a spinach and pesto sauce,some kind of bread with cheese and mushrooms cooked right into it,peach cobbler, blackberry pie, ice cream, 3 different kinds of fudge,and vodka with diet cherry 7-up(hey a girl has to watch her figure)! Lord Jesus, I was in a carbohydrate coma after that. I slugged home and went to bed without even taking a bath! Sorry Dooley! I woke up with a chocolate hangover! Bleck!I am still no wanting chocolate so much anymore! But, my oh my, to be able to eat what ever and when ever I wanted it! I have never before been such a glutton! I was back on track doing the low carb thing though yesterday! I have a chocolate orange sitting in the fridge as I type. I always get one for Christmas The Rat Bastard always gave me one and now my cousin Linda puts one under the tree for me! Sweet girl! I gotta get back to the "w" Looks like a long night for me!

Merry Christmas!

Caden, Sarah, and Brock The foster kids I love so very much!


Below is a copy of my favorite cookies! I hope you enjoy making them as much as I do!

Jose Cuervo Christmas Cookies:

1 cup of water
1 tsp baking soda
1 cup of sugar
1 tsp salt
1 cup or brown sugar
4 large eggs
1 cup nuts
2 cups of dried fruit
1 bottle Jose Cuervo Tequila

Sample the Cuervo to check quality. Take a large bowl,
check the Cuervo again to be sure it is of the highest quality.
Pour one level cup and drink.

Turn on the electric mixer.. Beat one cup of butter in
a large fluffy bowl.

Add one peastoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point
it's best to make sure the Cuervo is still OK. Try another
cup...just in case.

Turn off the mixerer thingy.

Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup
of dried fruit.

Pick the frigging fruit off the floor...

Mix on the turner.

If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaters just pry
it loose with a drewscriver.

Sample the Cuervo to check for tonsisticity.

Next, sift two cups of salt, or something. Who geeves
a sheet. Check the Jose Cuervo. Now shift the lemon juice and strain
your nuts.

Add one table.

Add a spoon of sugar, or somefink. Whatever you can
find.

Greash the oven.

Turn the cake tin 360 degrees and try not to fall
over.

Don't forget to beat off the turner.

Finally, throw the bowl through the window, finish the
Cose Juervo and make sure to put the stove in the wishdasher.

Cherry Mistmas

More About Brock

He is home now and doing much better since he had a ventriculostomy! He was in the office with Adrian and his partner Patrick yesterday for the office Christmas party. Sarah was there as well. Adrian had Brock's chart with him and we were reading through it. I was so appalled by the things I read. He had several fractures I think I had mentioned before but even I had no idea the extent of the damage done. Remember he is only a few weeks old as in less than 12 weeks old.When he was first brought to he ER for his diaper rash, he also had the following;both ankles fractured,both knees fractured, and a pelvic fracture. Also the 11th and 12th ribs were fractured along with his skull fracture!Yep, you are reading this right!

Adrian said he was having breakfast with some friends of his the other day and he was showing someone a picture of Brock. It was back when he was still in the hospital and Sarah saw the picture and asked him what was wrong with Brock. Adrian told her he had been badly injured and was at the hospital to get all fixed up. She then said "Mommy beats on Brock". Needless to say the whole room went quiet as everyone stared open mouthed at her.I ask you, how can anyone be so cruel and heartless as to beat on an infant? It makes me kind of mad at God. I mean, why would He let something like that happen to such an innocent helpless being? You got some 'splainin' to do!

He is the best little thing too. he eats well and when he finishes he curls up on your shoulder and goes to sleep. he is a bundle of joy! I could hold him for hours! His little breath on my neck smelling like formula and baby! He is even adorable while passing gas in my arms! HAAHA!

I am going over to their house on Christmas day. They have a 5 year old brother who lives in a foster house not too far from them. He will be at Adrian's on Christmas day and Adrian says he is in the process of getting him too. He feels it is important to keep the 3 of them together if at all possible. He will come to live with them on the 27th! Not far off now! That will give Adrian and Patrick 4 kids altogether. They already had Caden, the 8 month old baby boy they have had since he was 5 months old. Wow, full house! They couldn't be happier!Neither can I ,knowing I get to share the holidays with them!

A Christmas Card for You All!

Dentist Day

I thought everyone could use a nice picture of sweet Dooley! It is an old picture but how cute is he? Really!

I have a dental appointment this afternoon. Just a cleaning but it will get me out of the office this afternoon! Whoo hoo! I am so ready for my vacation. I am taking it after the holidays. I haven't decided what I will do yet if anything. I may just stay at the house and do day trips around Austin. I haven't made up my mind yet.

I got a present from one of the girls in the office this morning. It is a leash holder for the wall and it says no outfit is complete without dog hair! How true! We slept last night with the front door inlocked. I guess I live in a good neighborhood because we woke up not dead and nothing gone. Dumb asses! I thought Linda had locked the door and she thought I did!

I am so proud of myself this morning I put on a sweater that is like 2 sizes smaller than the clothes I have been wearing and in it I can tell I have lost weight. I am looking... not bad people!Hopefully, by this time next year, I will be shopping in the front of the store! Steph, I am gonna need some designer clothes. I know you can get them in your fabulous high fashion job! Hook me up!

This morning something else happened that I am so grateful for and that is I woke up without pain! I know this sounds trite but I have wicked bad osteoarthritis and live in pain constantly but this morning I woke up and my knees were not screaming and my shoulder is not hurting either. Now by the end of the day, I could have a different outlook but I am grateful for ever how long it lasts. A truly wonderful gift! I laugh when I tell people that pain free days are so infrequent that I mark them on the calendar.

We had a big meeting this morning in the office for the office staff about bonuses and tiers and the like. Basically, it means we get nada this year or the next. If we meet the goals set forth for census and budget we can get bonuses based on this for the year 2009. Crap on a cracker! What about all the hard work done this year or next year! I see this as a load of bullshit. And we all know that money talks, bullshit walks and right now it is walking all over me! I don't even know if I will be here in 2009. Man, I gotta get my drink on!

I am reading a great book called A Thousand Splendid Suns. It is about Afghanistan.I have it on audio CD and listen to it on the way to and from the "W".I read the author's last book The Kite Runner. Also a great read. Check it out! Ok, I am off to save the world of old sick people! Hope eveyone out there has a wonderful day. And notice it is Tuesday which are historically bad days for me but not today! Peace out!

The Grinch Who Stole Christmas

I have been working for the same company for 5 years now and every Christmas we get a Christmas bonus which is anywhere from 300 to 1000 dollars right before Christmas. Today we found out there is no bonus.Seems we are now going to get the bonuses based on our performance at the "w". Hello, I have been doing this freaking job alone now for 3 years. Let's not forget the talker who made my life hell and the workload doubled. I get paid a salary for 40 hours a week but am usually here from 8am to 7-8pm every night that is free work for them. I also work every Saturday to help out the field staff. I mean how much more performing do you need from me to give me a lousy bonus because believe me when I say the big dogs are probably getting a bonus for sure. They were all here too yesterday all smiles and how are ya's! Whatever! They knew back in June I bet we weren't getting a bonus but no, let's wait and tell them 2 weeks before Christmas that they are not getting any money. We all count on that bonus to buy presents. In my case, I forgo the bills that are due to buy presents and wait to pay them with the bonus check! I know we should never expect the bonus but like I said 5 years running. One of the office clerical staff is so upset she says they will have to forgo Christmas altogether because she does factor that in to her budget. Guess she paid her bills already. I hope I get cash for Christmas because I need it!Fuck it I am off to get my head stuck in some kind of liquor bottle! I said good day!

What a week!

Baby Brock after surgery.

Hey! I have been so very busy at the "W" lately. I have been going home at 7-8pm every evening. The good thing about that is the traffic is all gone and it only takes me 20 minutes to get there. But, the bad thing is I am at "W"!

It is cold and rainy here today. The weather has been schizophrenic. Monday, it was hot and humid temp around 78. Tuesday morning, it was in the 40's. Today, it is in the 40's and nasty wet out there! I am not a fan of dreary overcast days. These were always the Rat Bastard's favorite days! Go figure!

My fiber optic tree is dead. The lights just quit working! Whatever! I will just have to put lights on it next year. I ain't buying another dang tree! Unless it's a bright orange one which I saw at Garden Ridge the other day! My cousin says no way! It is not a Christmas color!I have about 2/3 of my Christmas gifting done. I have the package ready for Cory in Australia but doubt if it will see him before Christmas. I am going to send it off this week though! For some reason, I am always broke! I cannot figure it out!

I am still going strong on the diet front. It is going to be a challenge what with all the food people keep bringing to "W"!I swear if I see another tin of butter cookies... I haven't weighed in a long time, back in Sept. Then I had lost over 30 lbs. so no telling how much I have lost now. I do know that all my clothes are hanging off me and this morning I put on a pair of trousers I have not been able to wear in 3 years! Yeah,me!

Sarah is now in preschool so she doesn't come up to the office as much anymore but she is coming up today! We are going to see Santa sometime this week.Y'all she doesn't even know who Santa is! How sad is that? We were going today but Brock is having surgery. He is having a ventriculostomy.This is a procedure to help keep the fluid from building up in his brain! Please pray for him! Adrian is worried for him and is wondering how much permanent brain damage he will have. Not that it matters as far as him coming to live with him. He is dedicated to taking care of him no matter what! I guess when you get kicked in the head when you are 2 months old you have a lot of problems for the rest of your life! If that ain't a pisser to have your whole life fucked up for you I don't know what is. I do fantasize about meeting the parents of these kids and beating the shit out of them and then leaving them for dead! But then again, I think I would take them to the ER afterwards. I am a nurse after all!

The owner and the CEO of the company I work for is here in our offices today. I dressed up for the big event and when i got out of the car this morning and looked down at my clothes I was covered in dog hair! What's up with that? Hey, that's just how I roll! Sad, huh?

My computer at home is all wonky and I fear I will have to toss it! I hope I can retrieve the stuff I have on there. When I went into it last night in the safe mode I could see all my stuff so I am going to Circuit City after I leave here to get some memory sticks to download it all onto. I mean I hope i can do that . Who knows? I guess I will be shopping around for a new computer after the holidays.

Ok, gotta go for now! I hope everyone out there stays warm,dry,and safe! I will be back later to lurk on your blog site! How about them Cowboys! WHoo Whoo!

Friday-Yeah!

Hey, I got my yearly evaluation yesterday and it was excellent! Seems I am doing a great job! She even told me she was asking the powers that be to give me a bigger raise than what is suggested! How is that for ya?? Finally, I get some props! Represent! Yea, me!

I went to the Children's hospital last night because the baby boy is back in with seizure activity and had to get more fluid drained off his little baby head. They were doing an EEG on him to check for seizure activity overnight. He is so small and those wires are everywhere. I fear he will not get out of all this unscathed. he will most likely have some brain damage from being kicked in the head! Man, every time I think about it my blood boils! How could anyone abuse an infant?? God, I need some answers here!

I am doing the"w" on Saturday to make some holiday bucks! I am so broke it ain't funny people! What do I do with my money?

Sipping Vodka(for Crushed by INGSOC)

"I may be able to speak the languages of human beings and even of angels, but if I have no love, my speech is no more than a noisy gong or a clanging bell. I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have the faith needed to move mountains-but if I have no love, I am nothing. I may give away everything I have, and even give up my body to be burned-but if I have no love, this does me no good."
1 Corinthians, 13:1-13






A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done. The monsignor replied, 'When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. If I start to get nervous, I take a sip.' So next Sunday he took the monsignor's advice.
At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He proceeded to talk up a storm.

Upon his return to his office after the mass, he found the following note on the door:
1) Sip the vodka, don't gulp.
2) There are 10 commandments, not 12.
3) There are 12 disciples, not 10.
4) Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.
5) Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.
6) We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J.C.
7) The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior and the spook.
8) David slew Goliath; he did not kick the shit out of him.
9) When David was hit by a rock and was knocked off his donkey, don't say he was stoned off his ass.
10)We do not refer to the cross as the 'Big T.'
11)When Jesus broke the bread at the last supper he said, 'Take this and eat it for it is my body.' He did not say 'Eat me'.
12)The Virgin Mary is not called 'Mary with the Cherry'.
13)The recommended grace before a meal is not: Rub-A-Dub-Dub thanks for the grub, Yeah God.
14)Next Sunday there will be a taffy pulling contest at St. Peter's not a peter pulling contest at St. Taffy's.

I'm Sick!

Baby Brock with Adrian


Yuck! I have been home sick for the last 2 days! I have a sore throat ,cough,and headache! I have been eating zinc,vit. c and trying to take in a lot of fluids. Mostly though, I have been laying on the couch watching TV.I want to go do something somewhere but I can only just make it to the couch and that is about it!

I am going in to the "w" tomorrow. I am going stir crazy! Dooley is digging me being home all week though! He loves laying on the couch watching TV. I watched all the Dexter series up to the latest one,and some videos. The Good German, John Lennon vs US and Ghostrider. I liked the John Lennon one and the Good German has George Clooney, very film noire all done in black and white, but the Ghost rider I slept through so there ya have it. Now come to think of it I slept through National Treasure so maybe Nicholas Cage puts me to sleep!

My friend Annie came by today and brought me a beautiful poinsettia. I love it.It was cold this morning. I had to turn the heater on for a little while to knock the chill off the room.

Adrian got the 2 month old little baby from the hospital Friday afternoon. His name is Brock and he is adorable. He had seizures last night while Adrian was feeding him! He had to go back to the hospital for more shunt work. His head was full of fluid again! He also told me the parents have no intention of getting the kids back. They both look at this as a clean break and new start for themselves. I find this disturbing but also am happy that this means Adrian can adopt them! Hopefully, he will be able to adopt the older brother as well.Keep them in your prayers!